hippi3mermaid

There's been a big debate of LJ vs DW for years. Even when I was super active on LJ back in 2010, I noticed people migrating there, but I stay here. After years, I finally created this account here and want to try posting. Eventually, I'm going to need to make a choice between LJ and DW, and the best way for me to do that is to use both for a while. I'm 99% sure my posts will be the same on both platforms. If you use both, or happened to jump the LJ ship, please leave me your handles. My LJ account is under sassyredbitch. I'm also open to any ideas/feedback. Which do you prefer? I'm off work today due to it being the 4th of July. Last night after work, Amanda and I got super fucked up. I took some pain meds and smoked some green. Then I made a Strawberry Daiquiri pitcher. It had some frozen berries, fresh berries, a little bit of sugar and some store brand lemon-lime soda. I blended it all together with two cups of rum and that was enough to get us both fucked up. I ended up passing out early — not anymore than normal, but I wanted to make it past midnight. I was laying down by 8 because I was dizzy as fuck & needed a breathing treatment after my smoke sash with Wifey. After I was in bed, Jon came to tuck me in. Not literally, but figuratively; He wanted to check on me to make sure I was okay. I told him I wanted him to go down on me, but I couldn't reciprocate. I was way too baked, and if I'm being completely honest, Jon is well endowed. :D It's nice, but can also be inconvenient at times. So, Jon looks at me and says, " I've told you before, I don't mind taking care of you without anything in return." I love him so much. SO MUCH. Not just because of that either. Jon is the first person I have dated where I've been completely comfortable in every aspect of the relationship, from the foundation up. He takes care of me. I take care of him. If I were to say one person wore the pants, it's definitely me, but this is a partnership. Yes I absolutely make more than him (which doesn't bother me), and I absolutely call the shots most of the time, but we don't step on each others toes fro anything. There's mutual respect and understanding. Those of you that have been on my f-list for a long time know the shit I've dealt with in my dating life. SO much shit, that in February, I was actually trying to find a reason to split. And I did. I almost ruined everything, but luckily Jon is an amazing guy and we moved past that rather quickly. I'm still working on letting things pan out in all aspects of life. I'm just so used to being fucked over, so when things are going well for an extended period, I wait for the other shoe to drop, and if it takes too long, I just make my own shoe to drop. But, I have to remember that life isn't always terrible. In fact, it is supposed to be more good than bad, and I need to enjoy all of the good things happening. So anyway, more about me making something out of nothing, and that getting betwween me and Jon. We were technically broken up for two weeks. But, we still saw each other everyday, went out, etc. His patience and understanding throughout that time showed me just how right for me he actually is. I count my stars and try to express my gratitude for him every single day. It's cliche, but he is absolutely worth all the shit I had to endure. In the almost two years Jon and I have been together, not once have I gone to bed at night worrying about our relationship, or if he loves me. He's been all in since day one. Some days, I feel like he's more than I deserve, but then I remember my worth. I have been through a lot of shit in my dating life, and I finally have the man I deserve. We all deserve happiness and to have someone who values us and sees our worth. It is possible. Jon and I are walking proof of exactly that. After Jon finished, I rolled over and was probably asleep within 7 seconds. I ended up sleeping for eleven hours. Sometimes such things are necessary. Today Amanda and I have been hanging out watching The Vampire Diaries. We're on season 6 - about half way through the season. It's gonna be so sad when it's over. But, we need something to watch over the Summer while Supernatural is on hiatus. This morning we had french fries and dinosaur chicken nuggets for breakfast. But, my stomach got upset. I don't know if it's cuz I was munchin' on cheese, or because the dino nuggets are all processed. OR, it could have been the two dabs I took before I ate. Mucnhies lead to me eating too much, and having lost about 40 pounds, my stomach has shrunk a bit, and I can't tolerate huge volumes of food, especially when it's processed. Unfortunately, munchies don't give a shit. Lol. Now that my stomach has stopped hurting, I will probably make some ground turkey tacos, or taco salad. I'm thinking that second option sounds better. I should go to bed around 8, but I doubt that's gonna happen seeing as it's the 4th of July, and firworks will be going off around 8. I did sleep 11 hours last night, and got a nap in, so I should be fine at work tomorrow. Getting up at 4am sucks, yes. but I'm outta work at 1:30pm, and you just can't beat that. I'm gonna find a 30 day meme to keep me posting and share info about myself to the new readers I've got here and on DW. Happy fourth to everyone! Side note: SO far I am not impressed with dream width. I'm gonna post for a while before I make my decision, but this just feels like LJ with all the issues present.